Primordial pain refers to a fundamental basis of human existence and our unavoidable dependant relationship with another being; our dependency on our primary care giver; our parent.
It’s a fundamental truth that is present from the moment of our birth, that our relationship with mother (or father) is thus:
- I need you to live.
- Without you I will die.
- I cannot be without you.
This is a fundamental basis for relating; at the very core of our being. It’s both physiological and psychological.
And, it’s something that we then carry into our later lives. It’s not something we can necessarily shake off. It can generate feelings of fear and insecurity alongside utter despair, desolation and annihilation.
Have you ever felt completely alone? Have you had a relationship with a loved one that ended? By death or by choice?
I raise my hand, I have had this happen, oh boy have I, again and again, and it has this feeling of utter dread – it has this feeling of primordial pain, the fear of destruction. If I lose you, I lose myself. But, as adults though, that’s simply not true. We are fully self dependant.
It’s also a huge lie to enter into a relationship under the false belief that they will complete you and that you cannot be without them. Doing so is acting from primordial fear.
So the next time I lose someone special, the next time I feel that primordial pain, I’ll know what it is, and in knowing gain some perspective and control. I’ll recognise and greet the feeling, acknowledge it and in doing so lesson it.
Peace and love.
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